happy post
Today my post shall be on a happier note cos i went shopping wif angel!! hehz. Felt like i was released from prison or sth when i stepped into wisma..the air there somehow smelt familiar and beckoning. Lol. A longlost kind of feeling if u know what i mean. Anyway i bought a mickey mouse denim skirt..=) haha mickey is super in right now k. even though angel dismissed him as a 'bloody rat'. haha. poor mickey.

Die..went shoppin today instead of stayin at home to mug. how huh? i getting slack in my work again le. oh n i have a new resolution again. shall not sae what it is though. heh. 11 am le. time to sleep....

또 울어버렸다.. @ 10:35 PM

thinking once again
Hmm..in a thinking mood todae again. Just felt like thinking i guess. Or shld i say its self-reflection? (*hmm cant get my thots straight cos my mum is nagging in the background..*)

Ok where was i..anyway, what i wanted to say is just that this world is probably fair. I m not an eternal optimist, mind u. N i do feel that some unjustice was did to me ( i shall not say in what way) but still..overall, i just want to believe that God treats everyone the same. Btw, i m a free thinker, although i do think that there is a God somewhere up there listening to everyone's incessant grumbles.

I dun deny: i do want someone who will always be there for me. Doesnt everyone wishes for the same thing? N its super frustrating when the person is so near yet so far. I know that feeling well, too well in fact. Been acquainted with it since a long time ago. But i am a retarded person. Cos once bitten, twice shy just doesnt seem to sit in my brain too well. It gets fidgety after some time, leaves its seat n tada...im repeating history all over again. How cool can that be...* sarcastic applause*

But nah..im feeling much better recently. Learnt to control my emotions, control my feelings, control my moods. Somebdy once told me, 喜欢一个人不一定要跟他在一起。Guess now i really understand what it means. If u really like that person, u wouldnt want to give him pressure. N u just want him to be happy, even if it means both of u will always just be friends. Its enough.

Hopefully.

또 울어버렸다.. @ 10:37 PM

jap..
think my jap deteriorate until cmi le. my first tut was well, passable ba. its not that i dunno how to sae, but i jus always somehow blank out during jap tutorials. sigh. never mind. hope tmr's one will be better den. but anyway i always loathe the very first ta, tb n tc. cos i hate introductions. n the unfamiliarity. *shrugs*

finding it increasingly hard to find things to write in my blog recently. am i lapsing into a comatose state soon? hmmm...my CNS must be faulty. kk, back to my kanji writing. think i will take super long to do that so i have to start soon. maybe kw is right, shldnt have taken jap3 this sem. oh well..no choice now..

希望明天会是个艳阳天，抚平我心里的下雨天。

또 울어버렸다.. @ 7:45 PM

Thoughts


또 울어버렸다.. @ 8:43 PM

*yawns*
Hmm..cant sae these few days i have been in the best of moods. But oh well, i promised myself i wun let things that have ceased to exist affect me. So now, its just muggin all the way.

I will keep to my resolution. cos i see no reason not to.

또 울어버렸다.. @ 10:52 PM

A moment to remember
Hmmm, just finished watching 'A moment to remember' that angel lent me during the hols. As usual, it pretty much used up all my tears again. =( *sniffsniff* I always used to think that the worst scenario was having the person u loved leaving u for another person, or just not loving u anymore. I mean, i would rather he left me cos he is not on this earth anymore. ok fine, i noe i m being selfish here, but knowing that he is still alive n not with me..i dun think i will be able to stand it. Den again, i may just be too immature for my age. But if the person u loved lost all memories that he/she had with u, how would u feel? Honestly, i dunno how i would feel cos i think by then, i would most probably not be able to feel anymore.

Aiyo, my mugger resolution doesnt seem to be working yet. I shld be harder on myself. Bwleah. How come nobody is pushing me? Even my mum dun really pushes me when it comes to studies. Well, to be more exact, she neva did push me at all. Hai. Even peer pressure dun seem to be there. even though i noe some of my frens are getting stressed abt this yr. Sigh, time to hit the books for a start. or else my jap is really goin to go down the drain le..

-mug-mug-mug-mug-mug-mug-mug-

또 울어버렸다.. @ 5:41 PM

My crumpler
I finally got my crumpler bag todae!! Hehz. I went to the paragon branch like thrice n the wheelock place branch once before finally getting it todae. N it was cos my mum sponsered it for me..=) *beams* Well, poor kids like me have no choice. Hafta think n rethink, consider n reconsider before buying expensive stuff. But i think im kinda getting abit out of hand this sem though. Levis, crumpler, roxy jacket, converse sneakers, le coq sportif shoes, mango tops. Oops. Time for some self restraint. Kk i shall promise myself i wun spend anymore for these 2 mths.. Will i be able to do it? Only time will tell. Vacation jobs seem to be just a source for my shopping fetish. Hiaks.

RESTRAINT!!

Pple around me, pls do stop me when i show signs of buying anything, esp stuff that cost more den 20 bucks. I desperately need some motivation cum guidance. Or else i really will not know when to stop which is real bad, trust me.

Resolution for the sem: i shall really try hard to be a mugger for once. (in the sense that i shld mug on a daily basis n not jus when the exams come) 4 cores + jap3 is a killer. Well, at least to me it is. I still dunno whether i want to try for honours but anyway i shld still bia just in case i wanna go. But frankly, i dun see myself with a future in life science. Budden again, someone as nua as me dun go around thinkin of their future, yet. Its still sth too faraway.

These few days i think im turning into a skeleton. Somehow, i just seem to have an aversion towards rice. N i dun even know why. I just eat abit of rice n i will feel like vomitting if i try to force myself thru the rest. Am i fallin sick soon? i hope not. N i really hope i can get my momentum back soon.

-Has anyone seen my momentum n appetite? Pls return them to me soon..cos im dying soon without them..-

또 울어버렸다.. @ 9:47 PM

School!!
Oooohhh the long awaited day has finally arrived. How erm wonderful n nice that i can actually start printing notes again, go for lects, take my beloved 95 to sch n goodness knows what. See the enthusiasm that i have on my face right now n u will know how excited im as i wait anxiously for the clock to turn 2. (which is the time i m supposed to be leaving the house anyway)

tick tock, tick tock, tick tock, tick tock, tick tock..........

Did 3 months really pass? How come i din feel anything at all...hiaks.

Heh these few days i have been trying to find clips of shinhwa, ftts, kangta n even h.o.t. Kinda miss them..Think im feeling old again. But it really doesnt seem such a long time ago when i was so mad over them. Nah, my obsession with them hasnt fade, it was just lying stagnant somewhere in my memories. So now, i m trying to dig out all my memories of them cos im afraid that i might lose them if i dun. If u ask me, I still favour korea over japan, n i guess it will always be so. There's just this thing that i have for korea that cant be explained in mere words.

Oh went over to stay at OCC on sat (my mum's idea, not mine) den i signed up for this bear making workshop on 3 sept. Heh, okok i know im abit too old for this, but still it sounds quite interesting mah. N i will be going for this jap summer festival thingy on 20 aug, which also sounds like alot of fun. Hee..alot of things to look forward to. Although the jap thingy is like all the way at changi which is super far for me, but im still determined to go cos i saw 'goldfish' at the jas website. Haha its childish but u noe on tv whenever they show the characters goin for some festival, they always have this corner where they will catch goldfish? Thats prob the biggest reason why im goin for it. Lol.

Anywae, last fridae marked the end of my shopping spree! Haha, i really overspent le. Worked for 3 months n i see no signs of wads of blue colored notes in my wallet. Instead i see 3 digits in my bank account, n pathetic purple colored notes in my (matching purple) wallet. Oh, of cos n lots more stuff in my room. =) Lucky school is starting todae which is a very effective excuse to curb myself from turning bankrupt.

One n a half more hrs to kill...

또 울어버렸다.. @ 12:02 PM

sly..
Watching clips of sylvester's concert now. Yes, u din see wrongly, n i din type wrongly either. It is sylvester that im watching. Is there anything wrong with that? I know perfectly well that alot of pple just like to dismiss him as a chao ah beng , that he has a far from gdlooking face, is thin n scrawny, only talent is to 骗小妹妹, n whatever u have there. I m not 小, n im not as gullible, but the fact is that i do like his voice. N cos of that, i like him. N FYI, i do have his album at home n i listen to it quite frequently as well. But rest assured, i do not go down to his concerts n scream like some teenage school girls, trying to grab his attention or watsoever. Im sane k. In the sense that i do noe im too old for all that.

Age is catching up on me too soon. But for once, i felt young again when i had lunch wif my dept yesterday. Heh, yapz, im officially free again cos i finally ended my temp job. 3 mths..i cant believe that i had actually been working there for 3 mths alreade, which is like 1/4 of a year. Sheesh, vacations always seem to fly past without u realising it.

Anywae, my manager treated me to Yum Cha as my farewell lunch, n the dim sum there is really good. The push carts just keep coming round, like some human conveyor belt kinda thing. Heh but i din dare to take too much food la, abit pai seh. Den they were asking me to guess how old is my manager and ended up discussing what kind of cartoons i had during my generation. They mentioned quite a few, like smurfs, carebears, my little pony, he-man, thundercats, transformers, captain planet etc. N i know i did watch all of them..but dunno y they sae those shld be during their time, not mine. Later i went to ask my bro, n he said by the time i watched, most of the cartoons were alreade dwindling cos they were not at their peak anymore. Is that true? I dunno..but i liked them..still got conan, she-ra, strawberry shortcake,g.i.joe,the original x-men, tiny toons..the cartoons nowadaes are poor in comparison. Now, i cant even sit thru a proper half hr cartoon without thinking of changing the channel. Well maybe powerpuff girls n JLA are still ok. but spongebob?? teletubbies?? (wa lucky this one died off le. i always think u shld neva let ur kids watch teletubbies, cos i think they will get retarded after watching)

Ok cant write a longer entry, cos i still got 2 more blogs to write before going queenswae later. yap, on the search for my beloved converse shoes. *prays hard*

또 울어버렸다.. @ 9:29 AM

A lone Piscean in this world
11.03.1984
꿈을 잃은 아이
Frigging irrational
Works solely on emotion
Nonchalent about reality
Advocate of Atheism
Not a people's person,
but an animals' person
Only belief - 대한민국

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